I AM SO ANNOYED. I AM NOT GOING TO LET ANYONE BOSS ME AROUND ANYMORE AND TELL ME WHAT TO DO.

decisions decisions decisions

quarter life crisis? ok surely not a crisis but the decisions i make now could potentially change the rest of my life. but in the end, i think i'm gonna go for it. let's hope it turns out alright!

dream on?

I'm starting to think that maybe dreaming and imagining that my life is supposed to be a certain way is more hurtful and disappointing than anything. I'd always put these notions in my head that I was gonna be happy if I did this and this and not this but really, I think I should just let it be. I think I would be a lot happier if I didn't have these expectations about my life. Maybe not strive for the best things? But then, it would mean I'm just settling for mediocre when all of me really wants better...in everything. I literally stay up at night and think about everything that I have to do. I worry that I'm here on this earth for what really isn't a long time and I'm not making the best of it. Sometimes, I look at others and they're so content living what I would deem a simple existence. But, if they're happy, that's all there is to it, right? How do I just let things fall into place?

Let it be.

it's that time of year.....

SUMMER!!!!

summer is getting off to a good start, starting with the houseboat and then vacation in miami and the bahamas! i love summer time; the weather is nice, picnics are bountiful, time is spent frolicking in the sun with good friends, good food, and good drinks. it always puts a smile on my face and memories from summertime are ones that i remember more than most. =) i hope this summer is just as great as last summers, if not better!

some pics from last summer!

sighh

this week has definitely been one of THE toughest weeks of my life. i honestly did not know how i survived. i felt like everything was caving in on me. work, friends, family. it seemed like nothing was coming together. no one was there to support me and i constantly felt like i was being attacked from every angle. i just hope and pray that i don't get this awful feeling ever again. please please please let this coming week be better please??????

it's getting better...

anyone who's talked to me knows how i have been feeling about work for the past coupla months. but i think this week was definitely a turning point. after this week, i feel more respected and supported. one thing i learned from actually working is that attitude is the most important thing. the work isn't the hard part, it's the people that you work with that make it difficult. i definitely had to learn to not take things personally and to have a thicker skin. i was hired for a reason and i should have the self esteem and confidence to know that i am qualified for the job. i'm slowing getting there but it's always gonna be a learning process.