NIKE WOMEN'S MARATHON!!!

WE GOT PICKED!!!
or at least they charged my credit card, and now we just have to wait for the confirmation email!

but basically joanne and i are registered for the half marathon in october!
so we're gonna start training and y'all better be there to cheer us on!!
yay! im so excited! 13 miles, here i come!!!

freaking out....

so this afternoon i was running my usual route by my apartment and was just about to start mile 3 when i started feeling this tingling sensation going down my right arm. i immediately start freaking out because they teach you in nursing that this tingling sensation is one of the signs of an impending heart attack. i stop running and i take my pulse. it was hard for me to breathe so i was seriously scared and like totally freaking out. i had no cell phone and no one was really around. i just quickly walked the rest of the way home, a little bit terrified. I kept on thinking how helpful it was to know that maybe i could get a heart attack, i know the signs and symptoms, but if i did, i couldn't do anything to save myself!!! ahhhh

anyways, long story short, i freaked myself out, damn nursing assessment skills!! or maybe its paranoia?

i'm about to explode

omg i ate two dinnahs tonight TWO!!! count them. ONE TWO

AND they were seriously one right after the other

5pm dinnah with the nursing roomies-asian noodles, onion pancake, a lil bit of everyones noodles, and YOGURTLAND!!!

7pm dinnah with the homies lam, tina, and liz-fried rice, toast, shaved ice at guppies

so yummi but now im gonna die!
is this pain worth it????

take me away...

the past couple of months i have been having this feeling of just wanting to get away. i want to go somewhere far and sit on the beach and write. i want to go away not just physically but like spiritually (?). I want to step out of my body, and just watch and evaluate my life. i feel like im in limbo right now. everyone has this life their living and loving and im just here. i feel like i have no purpose, i feel like i don't know what im doing with my life. i know i know, im going to graduate soon, be a nurse, and all this stuff but honestly, i don't feel like im HERE. I'm not living life to the fullest, I'm not happy all the time, I'm just going through the motions.

I'm feeling so blah now that I've like gained 5 pounds and honestly that is a lot. It's going to take even more work now to reach my goal. Ever since I came back from home, I've seriously lost all my motivation to work out and eat healthy. I think I saw on Oprah once, that your weight has a lot to do with what you're feeling and I think I'm definitely gaining again because I've lost control and motivation. blah