embarrassing....

that is how i felt in ballet class today. when i came into the conservatory to pay for the class i specifically asked the lady up front if the class was the right level for me. she assured me that i would be fine so i thought nothing of it. i walk to the studio and there are like 6 other girls there. i start stretching and the teacher comes and class starts. the first 2-3 combinations i got alright. but after that, it went downhill. gosshhhh, i was soooo bad i like cringe when i think about it. i couldn't even comprehend the combinations the teacher was describing. there was no demonstration, just french word salad....i was soooo embarrassed. i couldn't even keep up! i had to look and copy the girl in front of me!!!! and this was after i asked her to switch with me so i COULD watch someone in front of me. omg it was the WORST experience of my life. the class obviously got progressively harder and i obviously got progressively worse. the other girls had their legs lifted in the air higher than their head, mine was lifted by my side closer to my waist....NOT pretty. they looked like swans....I looked like a duck!!!! then we did exercises across the floor. i think, o yes i love jumps and leaps. but nooooo. they do some complicated routine and i just stand there, a deer in headlights. anyways i lasted until the end of class....ALMOST. once they started turns, leaps, and jumps TOGETHER, i just walked out, head down, DEFEATED......

i was sooooo embarrassed you guys have noooooo idea. i was so bad and these girls were like professionals. the teacher wouldnt even look at me and help me. i was sooo bad. to top it off, all of the girls were ALL white, tall, and SKINNNY! o the world of ballet how i miss u!

I QUIT DANCING!!!!!!

FAILED